He sleeps early at night. Why.Why. So unlike me. Can lie on the bed for 4 wholly hours yet not falling asleep. And, i got the tendency to call him, waking him up in the middle of the night, sometimes forcing him to sing about 10 over songs to put me to sleep. He was already in his dreamland yet he needs to wake up and sing. This made me think of something mean i did to him last year. *LOL. The scoldings and vulgarities and smses and phone calls just to voice out my unhappiness! And that was an accident. He swore.Zahaha. Okies. I am the very mean girlfriend. At least,now I know i'm wrong.
Made me wonder what happened to me that changed me. I wasn't liddat in my first relationship. Maybe the insecurities in the first made me liddat. All That Asshole's fault. And that ass is my good friend now. What irony. That ass who critisized my b***s. But later claimed that he was joking. And he was sorry. F*** right. LOL. Yea. i've forgiven him la. And wished him all the GOOD for his current relationship. And, he still talks to me about some of the probs he got with his gf. I so kindly gave him feedbacks and all. Yet, i treat my bf like that. I'm really a piece of waste matter(shit or rubbish if you like). I suck and i still sucks. To the Core.